.Sometimes I get so frustrated when I see people complaining about the little things in life.

 

And I don’t mean to get frustrated — it’s not your fault.

 

But when life rips everything away from you…

When you’re fighting pain daily.

When you can’t work or provide.

 

Shit just hits different.

It’s easy not to realize how lucky you are until it’s gone.

 

But I get it.

Because I was there too.

 

I complained about anything and everything.

I felt like a victim in everything.

 

And then life hit me with something that will never be the same again.

It hit me with the harsh reality of what is and isn’t in my power.

And how much my own choices led me right to where I am today.

 

It was a hard reality to accept.

But that’s the thing about reality.

 

It isn’t always pretty.

It isn’t always sunshine and rainbows.

And sometimes, life really does fucking suck.

 

I didn’t see it because I spent so much time dissociating.

I never learned how to feel.

I never learned how to heal.

 

But life sure took the reins and said,

“No choice, bitch.”

 

And here I am.

Healing and grieving.

 

I shamed myself for a long time…

 

If I didn’t take care of everyone but me,

maybe I wouldn’t be in so much pain.

Maybe I wouldn’t be struggling so damn hard.

 

And the truth is…

maybe that is true.

 

But it’s also possible that it happened for a reason.

 

It led me to start my coaching business — something I can do when I’m able, not tied to a day-to-day schedule.

It led me to putting my art out there and making sales.

It led me to starting this blog.

And writing a whole book series.

 

So while it might suck…

And I might not have the life I once dreamed of…

 

I realize now I have so much to be grateful for.

 

Because even being alive on the worst days is a blessing

when on other days,

you are fighting for your life.

 

So, what is it that you’re fighting with today?

 

And how can you find a way to be grateful in it?

 

Not in spite of it.

Not instead of it.

 

But alongside it.